All set for GO....

Ultrasound was clear this morning! No cysts!! I got the ok to start my estrogen patches today! I also met the new Dr at the practice, she seems really nice and I mentioned the steroid to her. She thinks it will be ok to stay on it. Hope she is right!

Countdown begins....
Next ultrasound 9/10/2010
Tentative transfer date is 9/15/10 - 19 days away!!!!

Only 3 more...

BCP pills I have to take that is!!! I'm so happy to be so close to being done with them. Baseline ultrasound is on Friday!

Frustrating....

Tell me... why is it so hard to have a consultation with someone to help share your experience?

I went to see my Hematologist yesterday for my Mastocytosis (excess mast cells). We were talking about the previous miscarriages and the up coming FET. I told her about my elevated CRP level and that a cardiologist has checked out my heart and that my heart is fine. So now my Primary things it's something to do with the immune system which means it could be my Masto. I talked about how we are trying the low dose steroid this time but that the RE wants me to stop it the day of transfer. Well she said she wanted me to go talk to a High Risk OB. Ok no problem! I agree. So I get my Referral and I called them this morning. Well the Perinatologist refuse to consult with me until AFTER I have a first Trimester Viable Pregnancy.

Well DUH this is my problem!!! I am trying everything I can to get OUT of the first Trimester! So why can't they just see me, say yeah you've obviously have had issues and I agree that continuing the steroid might help. I'm not asking for a guarantee... just help me figure out what I can try to get out of the first trimester!

Well I decided to call my OB and consult with her. I at least have an appt with her on Aug 30th. Someone just needs to be able to tell me how to keep these stupid mast cells under control during the first trimester. Can I take a low dose steroid? Can I even take an allergy med ? Something!!

Ok that's my vent for the day. Other than that I'm still on BCP.... Last day of these should be 8/24. Then I have my baseline u/s on 8/27. FET is less than a month away now!!

today

Found out my Dr will be back in town (Hooray!)... and they did approve for us to transfer all 3 embryo's! Please pray that we have a successful thaw and our embryo's are healthy.

Are we there yet?

Nothing much going on... These 5 weeks of BCP seem to be lasting forever!! I did talk to my IVF nurse the other day... I wanted to find out whether they were going to up my schedule 2 days since AF had arrived 2 days early. Nope, no go. So that just prolongs everything by 2 days! I know 2 days is normally nothing...

I also found out my RE is out of the office!! UGH! They said she should be back the 2nd or 3rd week of September. Considering my transfer is set for 9/15 I'm really hoping she is back by then. I know all the other Dr's are qualified... I just love my Dr's bedside manner. She always makes me feel comfortable. Plus she knows me. Part of me actually wants to delay it until she gets back. The other part is just like, well anyone can stick the catheter in and transfer the embryo's.

Good news is I've lost 2 1/2 inches in my waist from all the working out! I don't remember all the other reductions for the other body areas.

It's so quiet today...Bri is at a sleepover and has another one tonight. She is trying to get them all in before school starts. :)

Some of my dreams....

I guess I have really been thinking about the FET lately even though I have TRIED not to. I had a dream last night that tells me I am still really worried about another loss too.
First off in the dream... one of my sister's was pregnant (as far as I know all the husbands have that prevention covered). In my dream I was jealous and saying how I wished it was me. Next thing I knew I was prepping for the FET... low and behold they do a beta for some reason and it comes back at 36 so the FET is cancelled. My alarm went off then so I could wake up DH and get him off to work. I told him about the dream and then went back to sleep. It pretty much picked up where it left off. In the dream I had a m/c (chemical pregnancy). So we got to start prepping for the FET again.

Now if I end up pregnant before the FET there is something wrong with these BCP!! I am definitely taking them faithfully!

I have had a lot of dreams while TTC. I've had a lot of dreams where I saw a positive pregnancy test (and ended up pregnant that cycle). I've had dreams of baby girls... of twins, of baby boy, of miscarriages. You name it I have probably had a dream about it. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if they didn't seem so real.